Welcoming The New Year

It's 10:30pm of New Year's Eve here in Australia. I can hear fireworks being set off my neighbours. I can hear my mum in the kitchen singing along to her Susan Boyle CD. I can also hear Jinky laughing at weird Korean dramas she watches. New Year's Eve for me a quiet one and I am happy for it. I am glad I am not celebrating it alone, I just wish my sister was here but she is partying it hard with all her friends.

This year has been a roller-coaster and I am pretty sure it's been like that for many others. I am thankful that God has helped me the whole way through and also for God giving me such great friends. I know that if I didn't have their love and support I might not even be here or even be in a state that was healthy.

I thank you so much for being there when I needed it. I thank you for going out and beyond helping me and comforting me. I thank you for just showing me that you care for me when it felt like no one else did.

I know through all the crap I have had thrown at me throughout the year, it has helped me become a better person. Being able to solely seek God and not rely on others to make me smile. To be able to just turn to God and worship him when I am down. Knowing my Identity is in Christ alone. Strongly hold my head up and say yes I believe in Jesus Christ our Saviour.

The thing I got out of this year is that no matter what you do for the Lord, it's useless if you don't put God first. That is one of the many things I have stumbled for this year. Responsibilities increased up and over what I could manage. Stubborn as I am, I tried to hold my head up and kept at it. That then clouded why I did what I did. I knew why but I didn't feel it...

2009 is closing with anxiousness and excitement for next year. With the excitement of starting in a new church to fulfill what God wants and not what other want. Stepping out in faith knowing that God is guiding the way. Knowing wherever God leads me it's to glorify his name and not my own. Not being held back my labels, contradictory mandates people set. Focusing on what God wants and being happy with it.

The one thing that is really making me anxious is that I am stepping out in faith and not knowing what is happening. I am somewhat a person that likes to know what is happening so I can prepare for it. This is a way that is going to stretch my faith as I have to solely rely on God for guidance and wisdom. But I know God has the upper hand of knowing what is best for me and I love that I have a God that has my back on everything I do for his name.

I am excited for the upcoming programs that will be happening and the expansion of my new church. I am excited and expectant that God will really push me spiritually to help me trust him more and to be obedient to his word.

2010 is going to be a good year ^__^